Matagal kong inantay ang gantong klaseng istorya.
Minsan ko nang hiniling sa isang writer na kilala ko pero masyado siyang busy sa buhay niya di na niya natapos.
Dumating ang Bideok sa kamalayan ko at alam ko , oo eto na yon.
Kung soulmate ko man ang kwentong ito malamang oo. Dahil this story really turned my whole being upside down. Ininvade and diwa ko at pinagdebate ang puso ko kung ako ba ay dapat ng magmove on o hayaang magpakalulong sa mundong hindi sinasadyang nabuo. Hanggang ngayon, ito ang aking Pandora.
I started QSD just as a routine everynight at GMA telebabad. Ang alam ko lang highest rating drama siya nung 2009 sa south korea. Yun lang. Never ko pang ginala ang mga fansites, and reviews. Pero nugn lumaki na si Deokman at napasabak sila sa gera, dun na ako nahumaling sa story. Ang galling ng mga writers. Mula sa series of events na magkakadugtong , ang bawat lines ng mga characters (though translated siya , close naman to talaga sa original).
Curiosity lead me para malaman ko ang mga casts. And one thing intrigued me, si Bidam. Di pa siya nagpapakita and later on, from the review don ko nalaman na ang ending ng story ay tragic.
Pero tumigil ulit ako don. hinayaan ko lang na manood ng QSD , every night without deducing my first info about Bidam.
Then came episode 21.
Napatili ako for any reason sa kindat ni Bidam kay Deokman. Yun pa lang kinilig na ako. It was not because bidam is KNG (I don’t have no idea yet who is this guy! Tsk poor me!). Everytime na naalala ko ang epi na yon, naisip ko na dun pa lang nagumpisa na ang bideok. Why Bidam saved Deokman? It is not because he is obligating himself . It is because of his realization of one life is as precious as 200 lives. Tumakbo siya ng matulin hindi upang iligtas ang dalaga sa kamay nila seolwon. Niligtas niya dahil sa pagbabalak nitong pagpapakamatay. Mula sa katagang “Thank you” nag umpisa ang lahat. Ang turning point ng buong storya ng Bideok.
CORRUPTED LOVE STORY
Fastforward: Now .
My first attempt to read the YD/BD thread in qsph was last month.. At kung nakakanosebleed ang magbasa malamang limpak limpak ng tissue ang nakasaksak sa ilong ko. Napakintense ng discussions. Binalikan ko kahapon, sa sobrang init ng DB para kang mapapaso. But i came accross with one word , one Bideok claiming that the Yudeok was corrupted by the writers (that made the whole YAPH counterattack for more).
Sigh.
Corrupted was an understatement for Bideok. For me it was the most exploited story ever written. An exploitation yet resulted to mysteries, woes and imagination of the viewers all over the world. If Bideok is a book it had been a bestseller. If Sophocles is alive right now, he may lauded the two writers who made the most depressing ending of a love story i have ever seen.
INCOGNITO
Bidam would have been a plain villain . That’s it. Yan lang naman talaga ang plano nila Park Sang-Yeon (one of the writers) sa character ni Bidam—-a villain, based from the historical accounts where he was tagged as the greatest rebel of shilla . Pero …THERE IS AN ACTOR NAMED KIM NAM GIL who set the bar higher than expected. Pagkalabas pa lang ni KNG as Bidam sa epi 21, nagshoot ang ratings ng QSD to 40 %. KNG portrayed the role as if Bidam and KNG merged into one . (Sabi nga ni Guks, KNG is one of the few realist actors today) Kaya naman naturingan si KNG na secret weapon ng QSD . And later on, sumakit na ang ulo ng mga writers dahil di nila alam kung paano nila gagawing good to evil si Bidam sa kwento.
Eto ang description ni Park Sang-yeon sa conclusion ng QSD :
”Bidam inherits the life of Misil, and their story comes to an end. The tragedy of his mother’s life comes full circle and he becomes the wretched hero of the same fate. Ultimately he gains nothing he desires – not a place in history, Silla nor Deokman – and ends up forgotten by history, recorded only as the instigator of a mutiny. He is loved then hated, he gains power only to lose it, he earns the trust of people and then loses that trust. He will crash and burn, and his end will be tragic and glorious.”
The writers made Bidam’s background as complex and complicated as it is for the viewers and the story itself to understand. An abandoned, unacknowledged child he was—–grew up with misunderstanding and detachment from his master. He was a product of no certainties. He has nothing to loose. No name to pass as legacy. No lineage nor ancestry to worry for. He has trust issues but at the same time, wanting to enjoy the trust given to him. This is where the writers made an opportunity to explore and exploit his character. Bidam had premised to a “can do anything no holds barred and nothing to loose” man.
THE CHARACTERS, THE STORY AND WRITERS’ ROAD BLOCK
Namaraan ang mga writers para mas lalo pang majustify ang Bideok. Una si Munno. If merong reflection ang mga writers sa story, si Munno yon. Illusiyonadong matanda na nangangarap na magkakatuluyan si Deokman at Bidam na pati Birth certificate nila pinagsama na niya .Kahit mga babies pa lang nilagyan na niya ng malisya ang pag hawak ni Bidam sa noo ni Deokman. Later sa story, Munno then believed his pupil (that even to his very last breath, he even pardoned Bidam’s attempt to slay him.) He was then convinced that the Princess brought the sincerity in him.
MIshil even gave a piece of advice kay Bidam dahil alam na lang niya na pag ipagpapatuloy ng anak niya ang pangarap niya, malaki ang kapalit ay iyon ang legacy na inalagaan ni Mishil.
Seolwon and the rest of the Royal Inspectorate council feared of the aftermath of the nuptials plus the secret covenant.
Yeomjong, who had provoked Bidam, was the one who described how trustworthy Deokman to Bidam was.
Chunchu need to tickle Bidam’s belief of Deokman’s feelings for him. Hindi ipapatanim ni Chunchu yun sa isip ni Bidam kung wala nga talagang nararamdaman si Deokman sa kanya.
Tuso ang mga writers. Ang Bideok love story was presented sa ibat’ibang paraan. Minsan , you got to figure it out. Minsan naman, it was presented literally. One argument was that Deokman’s admission of her love was only at episode 57 , a few episodes more to go before the whole series will end. Oo nga naman, dun siya umamin. Pero hindi ba yung mga words ni Bidam don (You were the only one who did not point fingers at me for what I did. What the world around me considered insolence, you called it confidence. What they called cruelty, you praised it as courage, supporting me all the way. And what they chastised as vile subterfuges, were lauded by you as brilliant strategy…) sum up the whole Bideok from episode 21?
The last part of episdoe 62 showed the encounter of two Deokman. The younger and the Queen. Sabi niya, endure it until the end dahil ang path na tatahakin niya ay siya lamang magisa. Kahit na gustuhin man niya, di niya nakasama ang kapatid niya sa pag rule sa Shilla. Hindi rin niya nakasama si sohwa who treat her not as a majesty but her daughter. Those two, died in vain. And the third person was Bidam. Hindi niya nakita ang pagkamatay ng dalawa. At ang masakti ang taong pinakamamahal niya who died in vain ay nakita niya right before her eyes. I don’t question her tears during Bidam ‘s pacing toward her. I won’t compare the way she cried during Cheomyong ‘s death(nangdo pa lang siya dito non) . Or Sohwa’s death(Prinsesa pa lang siya dito non) .
Because , the last scene said it all..”endure it”. She endure it but after the last breath of Bidam, she issued her last edict, raised her flag and gave up.
THE INSATIABLE ENDING
Eto yung ending na halos ikaubos ng hininga ko .Literally.
Dito ko napatunayan how love can be so great and powerful that it can end a war. It can unite a nation. It can do greater things.
Deokman sacrificed her love to Bidam for Shilla. But it was too late to realize that after Bidam’s death she can no longer rule the country. She had endured it for three days, yes. But did she live with it? NO.
She is ill , yes. But take a look at that episode, when she endured even to give praise sa mga taong nasasakupan niya. Deny to death pa siya kay yushin na may sakit siya. Pero pagkamatay ni Bidam, wala na siyang dahilan pa para mag abdicate ng throne. The death itself is her only way to be with Bidam.
Bidam sacrificed Shilla for her love to Deokman. But it was too late for him to realize that it was him that Deokman want and not Shilla. At ang tanging paraan na lamang niya para makaabot kay Deokman ang sincerity niya ay ang pagpilit niyang pagpunta sa teritoryo ng Reyna sampu ng mga libu-libong kawal na nakaabang para patayin siya.
He endured. Hoping to make those 70 steps towards Deokman into none. Sa bawat tama sa kanya ng mga sundalo (hwarang man o nangdo), wala siyang ininda makalapit lamang siya sa Reyna. Lahat nagkakaisa upang tapusin na ang kanyang buhay—isang kautusan na nanggaling din lang naman sa babaeng pinakamamahal niya.
When paces reduced to a few, when Yushin finally reclaim him with the first strike of his first sword—his struggle pushed him more. While everybody is hurting Bidam; while Yushin made those final strike to Bidam’s frail body; THERE WAS ONLY ONE SOUL WHO VERGED IN TEARS FOR HIM. There she was, the woman standing at the middle of that chaos, who only cared about his pain. Everybody have no mercy for him but neither did they notice those tears and remorse of the Queen. She may have laid the edict to slay Bidam with her convicted will, but her heart had spared the man who only cared but to speak her name…name called Deokman.
“If there could be heaven above the earth, they could meet there, which is why Queen Seon Deok asked to view the heavens, the land, and what is between, before the story ended. Indeed, the path ahead of the great Queen Seon Deok is arduous, but she was able to endure it to the end.”
Nabasa ko yan sa isang blog. At ilang beses ko ba yan binasa para mapatawad ko ang buong istorya ng QSD. Minahal ko ang kwentong to na kahit ngayon pinapanood ko pa rin ang tagalong version. Sa kabila ng lahat , narealize ko lang ang isang bagay matapos ang lahat ng nabasa ko patungkol sa Bideok (at sa argumentong nanggagaling sa Yudeok.)
Paano ba magmahal sa isang taong naturingan masama?
Paano mo paninindigan ang isang taong mahal mo na alam mong bukal ang pagmamahal niya sa yo , pero ang lahat ng tao kinamumuhian siya ?
Paano mo sasabihin ang Sorry sa taong nasaktan mo , pero ang pagkakataon na inilaan sa yo ay ipagkakait at ang kapalit non ay ang mawala ka sa buhay niya?
And that for me , is the a love that will indeed turn your world upside down.
His charisma. Is that the reason? The first thing I admired about him is not based on his breakthrough performance in QSD. I didnt marathon the series yet. His first appearance in episode 21 made me curious to check his bio. My first read was his interview by 10.asia.kor. I was impressed. He’s smart, yes. But what strike me most was his unannounced visit in Padang Indonesia for his charity work. It amazed me much that I checked his other activities related to this. He endorsed CPAF. He went to Japan-Korea Friendship fiesta and made an appearance for free, where Mongolia became the beneficiary. (He then later received honors for both last year). Two videos were released when he went to Raphael House, assisting the handicapped children. He love kids indeed.
He have gained the celebrity status after the record breaking ratings from Queen Seon Deok, where his character as Bidam became a household name in the last quarter of 2009. Early in 2010, major CF’s such as ADHOC, The Class and Ohui add to his career portfolio. Despite this fame he got, he didn’t agree to what the society want to brand him–he isnt a celebrity. He’s not a god to be worshipped on. He is hesitant sometimes for his fans buying him expensive gifts. For him , his followers arent fan either. He requested his fans to address him Appa (Daddy) for he consider his fans as his family. (Which I honestly find it weird calling him that since we are almost at the same age, LOL). His premise is simple, he’s there to cultivate his craft as an actor while we are here to appreciate his wonderful talent.
With the knowledge I have about him, can I regard myself as his number one fan in Philippines? Nope. He still remains a book to be read. For me am still at the few pages of his life. I once asked the members how well do we know KNG and I answered 80-90 %, that is, based on his career portfolio. But as a person, Kim Nam Gil maintained his private life away from the limelight. His female bestfriend (whom he mentioned in his interview once) or his brother or his break ups with his exes-those are remained unscathed in the public eye. We know him as an actor but have you ever wondered, when he felt the happiest?
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