Kim Nam Gil: Still Remains As A Mysterious Icon

I don’t know when will i cut some slack, but nowadays am getting lazier. However being netizen is my hype lately.

So this morning I went to take a tour in soompi this time and indulge myself scouring for my latest kdrama flick, the recently concluded Secret Garden. I honestly became engrossed at this drama that until now am tempted to watch it again. This is like me after the He is Beautiful craze. So much for fangirling. Geesh.

Secret Garden.
Then Hyun Bin.
As much as I fell in love with Binnie or his character as Joo Woon, having a thread of more than 1000 pages made me much lazier to start reading. Whoa , that much?

Then I remember Kim Nam Gil’s thread which have less than a hundred pages to date. 58 to be exact. I checked both thread for the first posting date. And I was surprised to see that both were created in the same year, 2005.

Gong Yoo is much the same. And Kang Ji Hwan too. With numerous pages for each celebrities, I came to wonder why KNG have that small quantity of interactions?

I must admit that I came to only know about Kim Nam Gil after his remarkable (I have said this term for the nth time) portrayal as Bidam in Queen Seon Deok (MBC, 2009 ). Though I religiously watched on live streaming sites his follow up drama, Bad Guy, I felt lacking as a fan. I got to know about him more, that’s what my fanguts tell me.

Aside from QSD, his filmography highlighted my curiosity by these two points:

No Regret , 2006
Miindo, 2008 (Portrait of Beauty)

POB was my initial KNG movie to watch. I disregarded any reviews and synopsis, so just imagine me being surprised by its delicate love scenes. What can I say aside from KNG’s being so damn FTW hot here? That he indeed portrayed Kang Mu above par that I even hate his dying scene? I cried NOT FAIR after the sad ending. But oh, this is Korean movie. What’s new? They are fond of sad endings anyway. But gah, this man stole my senses. He really that good and wonder, from what planet did he come from?

NO REGRET. I only saw the trailer. I only saw the first 20-30 minutes of it. I stopped at the s-e-x part of Sungmin and Jae-min. I don’t know when will i watch and finish this movie. As much as it was regarded as true gay korean film by critics, I can’t just hold my grip. There’s no rush anyway. I have a year and half to take my time to see Jaemin again.

So could this be the reason why? Because of the context in Korea about gay as a taboo, No Regret have defied the connotation about gays. It clearly made an emphasis in the movie that love does not define persons. Kim Nam Gil even stated that this movie is not a story of two gays but two persons falling in love instead.

Im administering KNG Philippines Facebook Page for almost a year now. Based on my observations, new likers (“like” is FB term by the way ) are fixated about him as Bidam and sometimes forgetting that he is Kim Nam Gil. As admins, we have to introduce to members his filmography and his life before and after QSD. Yet, due to factors like unavailability of dvd’s and culture gap, we can hardly scour everything from KNG’s career box. But still, KNGph members still do love him. The page is currently increasing its members to more than 10,000 despite his exit in the showbiz for military service last year.

What made me his fan? My co-admins coined me as the KNG’s walking dictionary. Doing my homework left an impression to them that my addiction is overflowing. Right now I am able to access his official korean fan site, True Eyes. Together with Eve (my co-admin), we both able to meet our China , Indonesia and Thailand KNG counterparts. There’s a KNGPH YT channel. I made a KNGPH blogspot. The Twitter account made by Cris synch with our FB page. KNGph made a bold move to send a scrapbook to him and just depended on the idea that he actually received it. (That was his management had said). What else?

His charisma. Is that the reason? The first thing I admired about him is not based on his breakthrough performance in QSD. I didnt marathon the series yet. His first appearance in episode 21 made me curious to check his bio. My first read was his interview by 10.asia.kor. I was impressed. He’s smart, yes. But what strike me most was his unannounced visit in Padang Indonesia for his charity work. It amazed me much that I checked his other activities related to this. He endorsed CPAF. He went to Japan-Korea Friendship fiesta and made an appearance for free, where Mongolia became the beneficiary. (He then later received honors for both last year). Two videos were released when he went to Raphael House, assisting the handicapped children. He love kids indeed.

An issue was lifted though in KNGPH about Korean celebrities doing charity works for publicity. Sincerity was in question since having this kind of image may add brilliance to a rising star. I don’t care really if these stuffs they’re doing are for the show. Because in the end, they still extended help to those who need it. They still made a soul happy. However, I was more delighted to know about KNG’s isolated visit to Padang. He exemplified himself from then on. My respect soared high, despite the obvious –that he’s not just a good actor in his own guild plus the uber gorgeousness he defines.

Last week, I was able to watch his very first fan meeting held way back in 2007. It was not that “grand” fan meeting/birthday party. It was more of a simple gathering of fans across Korea to celebrate his birthday. (He made a debut in 2003, but gained distinction from his performance in No Regret and Lovers later in 2006). With a small number of fans surrounding him, he remained shy and poignant. As if he’s only talking to his peers. I instantly laughed at the overwhelming embarrassment written on his face when he received that boxer short given by his fan. The reaction was classic. He indeed appreciates his fans more than the skyrocketed fame he gained in 2009.I wish I was there to witness it because i find that kind of fan meeting a rare one.

He have gained the celebrity status after the record breaking ratings from Queen Seon Deok, where his character as Bidam became a household name in the last quarter of 2009. Early in 2010, major CF’s such as ADHOC, The Class and Ohui add to his career portfolio. Despite this fame he got, he didn’t agree to what the society want to brand him–he isnt a celebrity. He’s not a god to be worshipped on. He is hesitant sometimes for his fans buying him expensive gifts. For him , his followers arent fan either. He requested his fans to address him Appa (Daddy) for he consider his fans as his family. (Which I honestly find it weird calling him that since we are almost at the same age, LOL). His premise is simple, he’s there to cultivate his craft as an actor while we are here to appreciate his wonderful talent.

Kim Nam Gil is regarded by his co-workers and co-stars as the “clown” in the set/production. I have seen clips and NG’s showing his wacky side. I guess a minute or so with him will not cause me boredom and will laugh instantly. However, after reading few interviews with him I also feel a bit of hesitation. He is a deep person by his choice of words and answers. He can answer you with a question. Or the answer will make you ask for more. He wont just settle for a simple yes or no. He can talk for an hour or so and he wont dare to care.

With the knowledge I have about him, can I regard myself as his number one fan in Philippines? Nope. He still remains a book to be read. For me am still at the few pages of his life. I once asked the members how well do we know KNG and I answered 80-90 %, that is, based on his career portfolio. But as a person, Kim Nam Gil maintained his private life away from the limelight. His female bestfriend (whom he mentioned in his interview once) or his brother or his break ups with his exes-those are remained unscathed in the public eye. We know him as an actor but have you ever wondered, when he felt the happiest?

Abi classified Kim Nam Gil as a realist actor, where he put himself into the character until he owns it as if the character is no longer Kim Nam Gil. There will be no other Kang-mu. Bidam. Shim Geun Wook. So I wondered, how he had withdrawn himself from this wounded characters?

When he reverted his name from Lee Han to his real name Kim Nam Gil, a lot of critics asked why. He regarded this as a change for him as an actor. He felt being true to himself using his real name. That may have resulted confusion to his Lee Han followers. But IMO, this change of name only regained him to introduce a new actor in the field. Could be because he want to define himself away from the No Regret status? Only him can answer that.

I wish I can ask these questions sometime in the future. Because as my title conveys, the making of Kim Nam Gil mystified me still. He is not a halyu star. He’s one of the few actors though who stood out in distinction as an actor’s actor. Previously said, KNGph have a year and a half to look back at his works prior to QSD. Maybe, we can have a hint on how his acting is this superb, impressing not only his fellow Koreans but overseas fans as well.

~lyra
KNGph Admin
http://www.facebook.com/kngph

Walang Hanggang Paalam

Walang Hanggang Paalam

Day 13 of July. May mangyayari ba sa pagitan nito hanggang mag-akinse para masabing hindi pa ito ang tamang oras ng pamamaalam?

Eight years ago, I have witnessed myself kung paano nalungkot at nangulila nang umalis din ang perslab ko papunta sa kabundukan ng Zambales para mag-training sa Philippine Navy. Tanda ko pa sa araw ng pagpunta niya sa headquarters sa Roxas Boulevard, isang oras kaming nagusap sa cellphone ( di pa uso ang mga unlicall noon so kamusta naman ang nagastos ko sa load). Sa pamamaalam pa lang thru phone di ko na kinaya. Paano na lang kung talagang nakita ko siyang sumampa sa army truck. Or Makita siyang papalayo na bitbit ang mga gamit niya at sigurado akong magkikita na lamang kami matapos ang isang taon.

Nakakatuwa naming isipin, ngayon ulit ko naramdaman yung pangungulilang iyon na di ko akalain na ang taong nagngangalang Kim Nam Gil ang siyang dahilan ng matinding kalungkutan ko ngayon. For few months of admiration and keeping this page updated, I met different people, discovered my strength and weaknesses; have known my limitations and how far I can go.

Sa Operation Gilicious ko napatunayan kugn gaano tayo ka-adeek sa kanya. May pag-aalangan ako na baka di yun makarating sa kanya at baka sa bungad pa lang ng Star J entertainment ay di na tanggapin ang padalang iaabot ng Fed Ex. Habang yakap yakap kong dala ang package papuntang fedex noon, minumura ko siya sa isip ko, “Langhiya ka KNG. Dapat mong Makita to. Wag kang papasok ng militia na di mo to nakikita to buset ka!” Pero sa mga fans, na nagdasal na makarating ito sa kanya ay malaking pasasalamat na sa akin. Sana mabigyan pansin ang munting regalo natin sa kanya. Hindi man ganon kagarbo eh puno naman to ng pagmamahal. Sana Makita niya kung gaano siya pinagpipitagan dito sa Pinas. Sana..

For six months, this page have grown into something beautiful. A unified 5, 000 ++ fans who did not only swoon over Kim Nam Gil but also admire his humility and kind heart. He had entertained us by his wacky character as Bidam; carried away by his unstoppable love for Queen SEon Deok, and cried more than a liter of tears over his glorious death in the story. For six months, we have searched for all his pictures available in the cyberworld; watched those fanmade vids in youtube; learned to become patient while viikii painstakingly loads his current drama series; got curious about his previous movies and drama. We explored his life all through out . We were humbled by his generosity towards the unfortunate children. His low profile makes our pedestal for him hikes a notch higher. Everyday.

Kwento ng sundalo kong ekis noon, mahirap ang pinagdaanan nilang training. Sa sobrang hirap eh kapag nakalabas ka, tataaas ang tingin mo sa sarili mo dahil nalampasan mo ang physical, mental, emotional and psychological torture na dinanas mo mula sa kampo. Kugn iisipin ko si KNG, maaga siyang magigising araw-araw. Bago kumain ng breakfast, magjojogging muna sila sa kabundukan. Buong araw uubusin nila ang oras nila sa physical na gawain. May mga klase rin silang tinatawag para pag-aralan ang mga military terms and code of discipline.

Sa unang anim na buwan magiging ganon ang itsura ni KNG, wala na ang kanyang “bangs” na bagay na bagay sa kanya. Magiging highcut or flat top or even kalbo ang hairdo niya sa loob ng 2 taon. Puro mga camouflouge at combat shoes and laging get up niya. Mas madungis pa siya sa gusgusing Bidam na nakilala natin sa QSD. Sa dalawang taon sa kampo , isa lamang siyang private. Walang PA. walang maglalaba ng damit niya kundi siya. Walang sariling shower room. Walang malambot na higaan at mainit na comforter. Walang video camera. Walang limelight.

Kung tuloy na si KNG sa akinse. Dalawang damdamin ang mamayani sa akin. Lungkot at pag-asa. Nakakulongkot dahil mawawalay ang lalaking kinahumalingan natin mula sa kanyang ngiti at matatalas na tingin. But am hopeful at the same time that he will come back—a new Kim Nam Gil. Isang bagong imaheng patuloy natin susubaybayan .

Isa siya sa mga taong nagpasaya sa ating sa loob ng anim na buwan. He will continue to inspire us all even this time na hindi na niya makikita ang mga sons and daughters niya (san man tayo sulok ng mundo)

We will surely miss him.

“at habang papalayo..papalapit pa rin ang puso..kahit na magkahiwalay..”

^teniente Ly.

KIM NAM GIL CHARITY WORKS- AMBASSADOR OF LOVE, PEACE AND GOODWILL

Despite the hectic shooting of his latest drama series Bad Man , Kim Nam Gil still find time to visit Raphael House in Seoul last April 9 , 2010. This is one among the routinary social community services he had for this year. Having a soft heart towards children, his compassion to attend to this disabled child is overwhelming.

Kim Nam Gil had been active in his career after his acting recognition as Bidam in Queen Seon Deok. Yet, his participation in charity works did not escape the public eye. Last year in November, he participated in UNICEF collaboration with World Cup( to be held in South Africa ) and apparel company Basic House shirts. This event will set up a T-Shirt Red Devil with the theme of “Never Alone”. The proceeds will be used to help children, particularly African-deficient world to provide supplies such as medicine, educational assistance and clothings. Korea, one of the participating country, encouraged celebrities to become part of the endorsements. KNG joined the campaign with other 20 celebrities namely Kim Hyun Jung, Yoon Eun Hye, Lee Jung Min Hwang Shin-hye, Park In-hwan, Julian Kang, and Lee Hye Jung Big Mama.

Early in January this year, KNG, together with his family went to do social service activities to the rest of Padang (Indonesia) 2009 earthquake victims. Kim Nam Gil is assisted by a committee of local NGO in Padang to extend help in rebuilding the homes and providing basic supplies of the ill-fated town. No news was spread during the period of his visit, and even managed to tour the marketplace without the knowledge of fans and media. Videos taken was later compressed to a documentary and was aired in MBC.

Also during his US( Las Vegas and Los Angeles) fashion shoot for Marie Claire, he squeezed his time to join an international campaign for Center for the Pacific Asian Family (CPAF). This was founded to help address domestic violence and sexual assault in the Asian and Pacific Islander communities.

Noted that he also went to Japan last April and appeared for free in the 3rd “Korea-Japan Friendship Fiesta” , a charity event which is based on the friendship, trust and co-existence of the two countries and fosters charity activities through cultural exchange. This year theme was to promote contributions in educational support for children in poverty-stricken areas in the Asia region.

Aside from his hands-on involvement , he also made partnership with Ad Hoc T-shirts where the proceeds of sale of his personalized KNG shirts will go to Haiti Earthquake victims.

“The reason why I do volunteer work outside of Korea and the narrator in the documentary(for Padang Earthquake Victim) because I thought I should do the job as I could …. I know many people are poor in Korea and I ask myself why. But, I noticed that scenario even worse outside of Korea–my perception changed when I visited Indonesia and saw one there who can not eat and sleep in the shelter. “–Kim Nam Gil

sources:

http://allaboutkimnamgil.blogspot.com

http://www.hancinema.net

/Lyra

deathnote’s incognito

He is rude you see.but he just jokes around. He is mean you feel.yet you just dont get the grounds. He might say no.but doubt it for a yes. He might say yes but for a no make a guess. He can laugh all day. Yet note to the silent gaps. He can be mad all year round,but he just takes the time to understand why you lapse . He can give all his trust to you. But can take it away in a snap. He can give all his care to you .But its your loss if you weigh it half. He pokes sometimes but its real.He kids sometimes but its not a big deal.He shuts himself sometimes,yet its just for while. He ignores sometimes ,yet don’t get wild. If you got to know him,you’ll relate To what i say.if you shun to fathom, get loss,beginning today.

ganon kadali?

payslip.

iv known such group of people who wont live another day without their payslips in their hands.sobra.parang di mabubuhay ng isang araw hanggang di nila nahawakan ang kanilang payslip. laging pandemonium sa tuwing matapos ang araw ng a-kinse at katapusan. ritual na yata ang magsiakyatan papuntang second floor para makipag-unahan sa pagkuha ng papel. di nakokontento n mapalampas ang isang linggo.ganun sila katinik.walang pinagkaiba sa pag pila sa ATM . mas malala pa nga eh. para silang nag-aaklas sa pagmamadali.

mga dialogs na nakakabigla:

1. bakit ang lumaki ang witholding tax ko ? wla din lang. yung increase sa sahod napunta din lang sa tax! ( sana naisip na nila na oras na tumaas ang basic pay, kasunod na riin ang pagtaas ng equivalent ng tax, and other benefits. besides.,after the integration of e-cola, tataas tlga ang w/tax. )

2 .anu tong A/ R dito ? tanong ni manang corazon. Purchase order nio po te.sagot ko. ay! wala akong p.o. no! pag-aanounce niya in high volume. eto ate o.sabi ko sabay pakita ang logbook. at natahimik na rin siya. bka gusto p niya makita ang p.o card na pinimirhanan niya. ay ambot.

3. ang nakakalokang katanungan: tess, hanggang kelan n lang yung lapsing ng chit ko ? and promise.hindi lang isang ate o kuya ang nagtatanong niya. they are SEVERAL.

4. oi! bakit anjan ka na , may pila a!

5. pwedeng makuha n din yung payslip ni dodong? (asawa niya)

6. pakuha ng payslip!

ate , kain muna kami( puno ng katas ng crab ang mga kamay namin)

nood pa rin siya sa amin habang nilalamutak ang tiyan ng alimango.

mmaya na lang ate , kain muna kami.tignan mo o ang dungis ng mga kamay

namin….( at dun yata siya natauhan)

minsan ang sarap silang sigawan. minsan ang sarap magpaliwanag .pero sa sobrang technical n g sinasabi mo ,, di mo namamalayan, na pati na rin ikaw di mo na naiintindihan yung nasabi mo sa kanila.. minsan ang sarap deadmahin. magpalusot. pag nataray sila, talo ka na kasi naunahan ka .pero kung ikaw ang unang pumindot ng buzzer.yari ka.ang sama -sama mo.isa ka ng kontrabida sa tele novela .kung ano na ang ibabansag sa yo. yari ka kung yung natiempohan na pangalang bininyag sa yo eh on going sa telebabad o prime time bida..tsk tsk.

malas mo.

minsan, sa aking kapilyahan, 2 days before ko ni-release and payslip. kumuha ako ng reinforcer para siya ang maglagay ng notice sa pinto nmin ./at napakatahimik ng hapon n iyon.wlang kaguluhan. walang palengke. sarado. kung pwede nga lang na ganun lage ang idadahilan eh. pero, putik. bka katayin nila ako isa-isa kung ganon.

” WALANG PAYSLIP. NAG-HANG ANG COMPUTER”

wish ko lang.

pewa pewa pewa

 

 

 

PaUTAng!

 

 

Sino ang walang utang?

Ikaw na nakakabasa nito, wala ka bang utang?

Pag wala, aba napakaswerte mong nilalang! Sambahin ka!

Pero kahit na ikaw ay isa sa mga milyones na may utang, don’t worry..be happy pa ren.

Kase,

Di ka nag-iisa!

Imagine mo, pag balang araw, may weird na senaryo at nagrerequire na lahat ng mga may utang ang siya lamang may karapatang mabuhay, aba! Save by the bell ka!

 

At eto pa, kahit may utang ka, di ka makukulong. Promise. Nasa Civil Code yan (circa 1949).

 

Pero kahit na walang batas na nag uutos na ikulong ang mga nangungutang, may mga batas pa ren na nakadikit dito. Ang Anti-Bouncing Check Law (B.P bilang 22) halimbawa kung saan makukulong ka sa pag-issue ng check ng walang pondo sa araw na iprepresent na ng pinagbayaran mo sa bangko. Or ang pamemeke ng pirma ng may pirma (RA 9105 Crime of Art of Forgery, which I find it weird, naging Art talaga ang panggagaya ng pirma. LOL) makabayad ka lng ng utang.

 

May mga batas din na nakadikit sa utang, ang Obligations and Contracts (Book IV ng walang kupas na antigong Civil Code ng cica 1949). Pero sa isang sem ko na pinag-aralan to nung College, isa lang ang tanda ko . ang napakaweirdong Dacion en Pago.(later kwento ko yan)

 

Ang daming batas.

Subalit may mga inherent rules of engagement pagdating sa utang. Pero siguro sa tindi ng pangangailan, di na rin natin naiisip na may ganyan pala.

 

RULE 1: TRUST and Confidence

            Ang Credit ay dahil sa trust and confidence mo sa pinaguutangan mo. Hindi mo siya pinautang dahil sa grounds na ganto: syota, asawa, friend, crush mo, sikat, madaming pera(oo hindi lahat ng madaming pera mayaman, LOL), kababata since fetus pa lang kayo, teacher, student, co-worker etc etc. kahit sino ka pa na anak ng hari at reyna. Hindi yan ang dahilan baket ka nagpautang. Yun ay dahil sa tiwala at sa paniniwala mo na kaya ka niyang bayaran.

 

           

            Kaya pag may nanghiram sa yo at wala ka naming tiwala, wag ka nang magpautang. Kahit na sabihin mo pa na nag-CI (credit investigation) ka na, nag –guarantee si syota , asawa, friend, crush , or kababata ng pahihiraman mo, nasa yo pa ren ang huling say. Kaakibat ng pagpapautang eh ang Risk. The higher ang level ng confidence mo kay  borrower, the higher the risk. Hingan mo ng commitment kung kelan niya bayaran. Kung di niya mabayran sa araw na yon, kasalanan mo pa ren. Kase sa commitment date ng pagbabayad niya, may risk pa ren yun.

 

 

RULE 2: WAG MAKIPAG AWAY HABANG MAY UTANG

 

            Totoo to. Lalo na kung ang pinautang mo ay ang syota mo. Wahahahaha. Wag ka nang umasa na makakakolekta ka pa ng maayos kung aawayin mo lang si borrower sa anu mang dahilan. Dito matetest ang iyong patience. Pag wala ka niyan, wag ka na rin mag pautang.

 

RULE 3: WAG GAWING CREDIT COLLECTION ANG COMMUNITY WEBSITE

 

            Habang nade-degrade ang credibility ni borrower sa pag popost mo sa friendster, facebook, multiply or sa myspace ang status quo ng balance at I nterest at terms, kabuntot niya ang sarili mo. Nakakapraning din yun sa mga taong di nakakaalam na may tinayo ka na palang underground financial institution. Baka dahil jan, ang iyong makabag-damdaming artikol will lead to an impression na “katakot naman siyang utangan!”. Bawas points ang iyong kasikatan. Sayang ang mga sleepless hours ng pag uupdate ng pictures, ng events at friends sa iyong account. Tsk .tsk.tsk.

 

RULE 4: WAG MAPRANING

 

            Ang may utang naprapraning na kung pano niya bayaran ang utang mo. Wag ka nang sumabay. Its bad for your health.  Kung wala siyang commitment, wala ka nag magagawa. Kasalanan mo ren kase  nagtiwala ka.

 

            May mga tao kase na the more na kinukulit mo sa utang nila sa yo, mas lalong hindi ka nila papansinin.

 

RULE 5: DISKARTE

 

            Ang weird talaga yung Dacion en pago, anong petsa na, 2009. next year , magpapalit na naman ang structure ng gobyerno. Pero ang Dacion en  pago , ganon pa ren. (para kaseng tunog pagi sa tuwing nababasa ko siya. LOL) .

 

            Ang Dacion en pago eh ang tinatawag nilang pagsesettle ng utang sa pamamagitan ng pagsurrender mo ng nakasanlang gamit or ari-arian. Dation in Payment sa English. Pero ang sikat sa business eh yang pago nay an. Di pa ba malalaos yan? LOL

 

            May isa pang diskarte kung gusto mo makasingil, offsetting. Hanapan mo ren ng paraan na ikaw naman ang makakautang sa kanya. Wahahahahha. Tapos pasimple ka na lang sabihin, o ayan ibawas mo sa utang mo sa akin. Wahahahahhaa.pero hindi lahat ng pagkakataon magagawa mo yon. Hindi naman lahat ng buwan buwan , may binyagan, kasalan, birthday sa buhay niya.

 

Hay.

Ang utang ay bahagi na ng tao. Ako naggraduate ng elementary, hayskul at kolehiyo dahil sa pangungutang ng nanay ko. (mama: Pinang-utang ko na lahat ng buhok ko!) May mga kompanya sa US na nabuhay ng ilang taon dahil lang sa financing (diplomatikong term ng pangungutang) hanggang sa bumagsak ang Wall Street.

 

Kahit na nga ang mga namatay na ay na-eextend pa ren ang utang sa kanilang heirs and successors.

 

Ganon katanda ang utang.

 

 

So, matapos mo tong basahin.

 

Pwede pautang?

OUCH

Tinuhog mo ang puso ko!

(kaya mo ??)

 

eto yata ung mga common reasons na nasasabi tuwing may break up.

Except for number 16, nagiging template na ang gantong mga dialogue.

Pero pag nasabi pa ren sa yo ‘to as their alibi or reason or explanation for the break up…tagos pa ren!!

 

1. its not you, its me
2. im pregnant, at hindi ikaw ang ama
3. she’s pregnant at ako ang ama
4. ill migrate in US/AUS/UK/CAN for good. At bukas na ang flight
5. there’s someone else
6. I love her more
7. I love him more
8. I’m gay
9. madedestino ako sa basilan
10. madedestino ako sa iraq
11. I’m engaged
12. I’m engaged with my parent’s business partner’s daughter/son
13. Priority ko pangarap ko ngayon
14. I don’t love you anymore maghanap ka na ng iba
15. Pagod na ako
16. 1 buwan na lang ang taning ng buhay ko
17. Ayaw ng pamilya ko say o
18. Di kita kayang ipaglaban sa pamilya mo
19. Goodbye
20. Quits na tayo (!!!!)

 

 

 

 

daHiL jAn, PWENDS nA TaYo!

 

 

Naaliw ako sa tuwing naririnig ko ang katagang to na binabanggit ni Mr. Fu sa radyo as one of his taglines.

 

Sa tuwing may nagtetext sa kanya at nanghihingi ng payo; matapos niyang mapayuhan ng panenermon, yan ang magiging final say niya.

 

Na kahit di naman niya alam ano itsura nung taong sawi sa pag-ibig or relasyon (legal o illegal), laging parting words niya yan, kahit na siguro sa kabilang dulo ng pinanggalingan ng text..baka na HB na yung listener o lalong bumaba NA ang morale pagkarinig ng “te…wag ka masyadong malandi te!”.

 

Chicken lang naman ang mangbigay ng payo. Ilalatag sa yo ang mga detalye, analyze , sabayan ng analogy , ng mga quotes galing sa mga prominenteng persons—and whola! Ayan na , pwede ka nang maging “dear friend” ate jolens!

 

Pero ang mahirap ay ang manghinge ng payo. Lalo na kung ang nagawa mo o ginawa mo sa problema mo ay otsentang porsyentong (o mahigit )kagaguhan o kabobohan. Malamang sermon lang ni Father ang abot mo.

 

Mas mahirap na naman manghingi ng payo kung ikaw ay binalot ng ego at pride na kasingkapal ng jacket ng mga Eskimo. At sa tuwing lapit mo kay friend, uurong ang buntot mo na tila aso. Bawat araw na pagtatangka mong lumapit, nauudlot dahil puno ang isip mo ng mga “what if what if”. Nakahalata na rin si friend sa inconsistency ng katahimikan mo. Nagpapahaging na siya sa yo kung ano ang problema mo dahil sa busangot mong mukha.  Pero. Pinili mo mag-kiber kiberan.

 

Lumipas ang araw at buwan, akala mo okay ka na. akala mo ren okay ka na sa buong barkada. Pero akala mo lang yun. Sa bawat tawa, may halong pagtataka..okay ka na ba? nasabi mo na ba ang ibig mong sabihin? Eto na ba ang ending ng pagmumukmok..pangdedeny o pag mamaang-maangan sa kung ano ang totoo?

 

Eh ano na ren ba ang totoo?

O ayan lito ka na.

Sa tinagal ng delaying tactics (that is, ang di pagharap sa problema) isa ka na lamang simpleng tuod na naghihiintay ng himala mula sa langit.

 

Ang mga friends ay hindi mga superhero para lahat ng problema natin sa life ay may solution. (nagpapaka-superhero lang..hahahaha) . Pero ang maging confidant natin sila sa buhay ay isang regalo mula kay Jeus. The more friends, the merrier  ang mga payo. Ang sermon, tawa , iyakan at kulitan. Para lang yang halo halo na madaming sahog. Ikaw kung magpipirme ka na lang sa mais con yelo o ice tubig.

 

Friends do come and go. Kaya wag ka nang maging paranoid na balang araw ang mga yan ay lalayasan ka, iwan kang mag-isa. Mas lalayasan ka sa lalo’t madaling panahon, kung ikaw na mataas ang tingin sa sarili eh magpapakahayok ka sa sarili mong diskarte sa buhay , kahit na naamoy mo na sa sarili mo na bulok pala lahat ng diskarte mo.

 

 

Baket nga ba ako nagsulat ng tungkol dito?

Para eto sa isang kaibigan na feeling ko tinaboy ako, kasama ng iba pa pa naming pwends.

Pero ano pa at sinarado na niya ang gate niya at tinapon ang susi sa dagat.

 

I rest my case.

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One thing I have learned from yesterday meeting with the finance people is this:

Blaming will never justify the fall or loss of a business. There will  always be a tangible proof to vouch the reasons why a certain success rescinded to push through.

 

When you ought to blame others for decisions you alone had made , it is a sign of irresponsibility topped with pride and ego. I still believe in humility. But yesterday, I found none from my superiors.

 

It was just so disappointing to present yourself dignified to these people whom I respect the  most despite the fact that my services already offered, is until now, uncompensated( and even undervalued). But  my sentiment goes mostly to my fellow workers whom families expected or worse, hoped for what is due. It was sad though, after all the services rendered by their people, they still think of these poor workers as the major cause of their downfall.

 

We are indeed struck by the global recession.

 

Sigh.

TWILIGHT SAGA

E–boOkLAT mO!

 

  

FIRST BOOK: TWILIGHT 

 

 My curiosity to Twilight activated when it became a word of mouth from my friends, not discounting the fact that it was even a phenomenal movie to date during the last quarter of 2008. I almost ignored my friends plea to the bookstores they went to make the series available. I almost choose pizza over the promotional price of the first book.

 

Almost.

 

I have no clear or may I say , a total point of view of the whole movie, since I was discouraged by just seeing the pirated copy of it( after missing the playdate) I tried to make myself patient to watch the dvd instead. But the disappointment reached me until the DVD was already released last month.  

 

The Book

 

It was a first hand encounter to get the book and immediately read it. I have no idea how Meyer had presented, nor even have read any review of it .   It was bare. Raw.  And , that drove my curiosity to read more. Even if Meyer used Bella’s POV in the story, Edward had exude his own character and presented himself as the vampire he should be, without distorting the comprehension and knowledge of Bella as the story teller.

 

Reading it made me laughed most of the times for the humor embedded during the conversations between Bella and Edward. It was the classic, natural lines that made the complications between the two characters simple, but beautiful.

 

The story had proven that the complexities of being a highschool student, of having a forbidden love, or of being a vampire itself can lead to a simple honesty and acceptance. Meyer had singled out her choice of conversations from the stereotype swoons and admirations.

 

“Give me a minute to restart my Heart”

“Humor me”

“Men are crabby when they are hungry”

 

The book as a whole had intgrigued me more on how Meyer told us the story she had dreamnt four years ago. It was clear as crystal on how she had described the details ,even the meadow where Edward had shown how he looked like under the sunlight.  Without the movie, thru those words i feel like im seeing Forks too. In the scorching heat in manila, i can feel the chills while reading it.

The resolution of the story summed up the story of Edward and Bella to be independent from the next series . If im not a stubborn reader, i can content myself with Twilight alone. I wont bother to rush myself to look for the New Moon everyday at the bookstore. I wont try to attempt to print the 365 pages of the e-book. I wont give a damn to care and read the rough draft of Midnight Sun, even if it means reading Edward’s version in my tiny mobile phone and painstakingly wait for it to load per page.

 

 

 

 

 

…to be continued